Monthly Archives: November 2012

Mistletoe or TOW Missile?

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I was a TOW Gunner when I was in. Twisted steel, sex appeal, and 36 inches of penetration baby. Stay classy WordPress!

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Unloading stress

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Passed some work I was doing off to the people that should have been doing it; I helped them out because they had a course coming up and I am infinitely more familiar with curriculum development and revision than they are. Significant amount of stress unloaded.

I have a LOT of studying and schoolwork to do between now and 15 December, so I hope that the medication switch I requested works. I asked to cut down on wellbutrin and get something for anxiety. What he did is change me from 300mg of wellbutrin xl once a day to 150mg wellbutrin sr twice a day.

I am back to exercising again, I feel much better when I do. Makes me think a lot of my migraines are stress and tension induced. Need to get my neck massaged until it feels like putty.

Weird days

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I have had a weird few last days. I was cruising Facebook a few days ago and accidentally stumbled upon one of my wife’s affair partners. I never really saw what he looked like and she dismissed him as a loser to me when she was working there and described him to me, and somewhat unattractive. I knew it was him because if the mutual friends we had, and by where he lives. My wife had described to me the area he lived, but not the exact street. Now I know which building, and it would be a matter of no more than a few hours spread across a few nights to identify which apartment/physical address. Let this be a lesson to anybody reading this post: don’t fucking tag yourself in geographical locations and don’t let anybody else do it, lest you piss someone off and that someone is resourceful with vengeance in their heart.
So anyways, seeing his picture validated my wife’s manic comment that I wasn’t sexually attractive, in a weird, twisted way. The pictures he has up cast him as every bit of the loser she told me he was, and I wonder why she would find him sexually attractive enough to sleep with but not me(at the time). It also triggered those feelings and thoughts of desperation, I would have done anything, tried anything to get her to want me and love me again. My confidence wavered a little bit and I had been preoccupied for the last few days, and had an anxiety attack in the middle of the night that completely nullified my ambien.
I know my thoughts and feelings of desperation aren’t in line with reality, but emotions that are so strong they cause you to alter your fundamental beliefs and perception of reality to keep up with changes don’t just disappear when the changes are done or the reason for changing is gone.
She has been reassuring me of my place in her life more often lately and it makes me feel especially good. She had a good idea for getting a Thanksgiving meal from the Boston Market that turned out good, and we had a good time at dinner with the kids. My oldest son is thankful for the clothes he has, he said it several times in the most serious, innocent way. Also had a good time playing Uno and Dice with Buddies (Yahtzee). I love you babe.

New carry pistol

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New to me anyway. HK45C. 8 rounds of 45acp, variant 1 (double action/single action, safety and decocker–the lever, not something that removes your wayward husband’s penis). Will enjoy hitting the range with this baby today or tomorrow. Thinking of getting a holster for it from Code 5.