So much for honest discussion…

As a side note, I’ve made several of my posts public again, and as I review them I will continue to make more public.  I won’t edit them, so anything that comes back public will be unchanged from it’s original form.


If you’ve read some of my posts over the last month you’d notice that some of them were politically charged.  Something that annoys the poop out of me is when someone wants “honest discussion” about something but threatens to not publish further comments or ban users all-together from forums, blogs, facebook pages, because of opinions that aren’t popular with the owner or group.

This kind of thinking is how bad plans get put into place and everybody stands around with the universal “WTF?!” shoulder shrug when the execution displays the horrible planning.  It’s also how things like the Jewish and Armenian Holocausts happened.


Remember the fallen…

We have the privilege of enjoying our Christmas and New Year holiday relatively conflict free.  Whether or not you believe in the validity of the last few wars that the United States has fought in, I believe we can all recognize that we enjoy our holidays with a certain amount of peace and security because of the sacrifice made by men and women of the military who have come before, are serving now, and will serve in the future.

I hope that they return alive and uninjured, but that just isn’t realistic.  It is my duty to remember those who didn’t return alive and to do what I can to raise my children in a way that honors the past and facilitates a positive future.

Cothran, Mayorga, Winslow, Heflin, Shea: I’m on duty, your legacy is safe with me.

memorial rifle cross

Sleep Study Partu Duex

Now I get to go sleep with a CPAP mask on, and the same wire attachment array as before.  I’ll post some pictures tomorrow maybe.
Our 7 year anniversary is next week, and falls on a Friday, which also happens to be my regular day off. I am hoping that I can get through the 27th ok. That is the one year anniversary of “that” day.
We are in a good spot right now. There are some things I would like to see change, but I can wait patiently because when other things get sorted out, the changes I’d like to make may happen automatically. We have been spending good time together lately and watching old Saturday night live episodes.before bed, so we go to sleep after a lot of laughing. Other than seeing the date on the calendar and knowing what happened, and the.occasional thoughts that occur when I’m unoccupied, I have had very little reminder of the affairs and am at a place where I feel like I can really begin to understand how my wife’s symptoms work; what triggers them, what calms them, what worsens them. At the very least I know that she loves massages and hates people on facebook at about 6pm.
Been feeling burned out after work lately. I’m working pretty far outside the established orders and regulations, by necessity, because they don’t cover situations like this. More of a case of not wanting to be the focal point of decisions and responsibility all day long right now. Not just at work, but at home too. It can be frustrating when I’m asked for information from people all day, and pushed for information and decisions by family members. Like a recent road trip: my mom, dad and grandma wanted us to drive to a place 3 hours away from us, because it was closer to them, so they could give the kids their presents. We proposed a place that was a 3 hour drive for them and a 2 hour drive for us. Somebody was driving 3 hours and another was driving 2. Here’s the catch: I had a proctored final on my religious extremism class early that evening, and they wouldn’t be leaving until 11. So we cancelled, and my mom immediately began pushing me for a decision on another meeting place and time, and so did my wife. Eventually a solution presented itself, but not before I got a little disappointed in myself for making the decision to not make a decision (yes, that is a decision you can make-always 3 options in a “this” of “that” choice).



If one wants to be an owner of firearms for self defense, whether just at home or also carrying while out and about, there is a moral responsibility charged to you from within the firearms community to get training and continue to practice. It is not enough to know where the safety is; understanding how your chosen tool mechanically functions, and things you can do to make you a better owner are critical. For example: carrying a spare magazine. It is there to serve as a source of ammunition should your first magazine fail or you find yourself the target of multiple assailants. On sights: if you can’t see them clearly, speak to a certified firearms instructor or do some google research. XS Big Dot would be a foot set in that instance, but for most of us, 2 or 3 dot sights will be fine.
Day or night sights? I prefer night sights but know this: if you can’t clearly identify your target, don’t shoot.

On firearm mods: again, consult with some instructors and do some google research to see what others are doing. Be cautioned: you should run at least a few hundred rounds through before you decide to change anything. The problem, like a stiff or heavy trigger, may work itself out during the break in process.

Mods I recommend:

1. Sights-if you don’t like the factory sights, find another set

2. Grips-if the gun slips out of your hand or is uncomfortable, find a set of grips that work or apply grip tape (most polymer pistols don’t have removable grips)

3. Action enhancement package-a smoothing of the “action”.  Includes trigger, trigger bar, hammer, and sear (hammer and sear if hammer fired)

4. Extra magazines and extra magazine springs-Magazine bodies and followers generally don’t wear out that often, but the springs sure as heck do.  Have extra springs for your magazines, they are much cheaper than you buying another magazine.

5. Extra parts for your firearm-extra springs, guiderod, bushing (1911 style pistols), action parts

My personal favorite is the Beretta 92FS.  After spending a butt load of time and thousands of rounds on one in the Corps (technically an M9, barely different) I decided to buy one.  A quick list of the things around it, from the top right running clockwise are: add-on SGS-type Compensator, Surefire rail adapter, Surefire X200 Flashlight, and a spare 9mm magazine.  I’ve got about 15 magazines somewhere in my house, only 4 are loaded with 9mm ammo right now.  The rail adapter clamps on to the trigger guard and the light clamps on to that, so you have a flashlight on your pistol.  Useful at night INSIDE your house.  Don’t go outside your house after someone, and don’t use this like a “flashlight” inside your house or you might find yourself pointing a pistol at a loved one just to make sure they’re a loved one.


So in summary: be a responsible owner by getting training, keep practicing, modify your firearm for your needs.  If you need mental health help, go get some.

Mass murder and what’s to blame

I am an INTP.  A relatively rare personality type that views the world as sets of systems, models, theories.  We love to create systems to explain things and explore the links between pieces of that systems, and possibly other systems.  We are very good analysts.  Now that we have a framework for how my mind works: on to mass murder and gun control.

What is mass murder?  More than a few people getting killed in a relatively short period of time in the same location, and same incident.  Most localities have their own definition of what a mass murder, or mass casualty incident is.  For our purposes, we’ll go with 6.

Let’s take the stance of Coconutspeak and Syrbal and assume that guns are responsible for killing and not the person pulling the trigger.  It would stand to reason that if we remove firearms from the equation that mass murder would stop.  This is incorrect; the biggest mass murder to occur on American soil was done with the use of box cutters and aircraft, no firearms were involved.

Timothy McVeigh also used no firearms in the commission of his mass murder and managed to kill more than 150 people; again without the use of firearms.

Overseas: Islamic extremists frequently bomb mosques of the opposing sect and kill 30 or more people at a time.

In 1995 Japanese terrorist group Aum Shiniryko conducted a nerve gas attack on a Tokyo subway.

No firearms involved in the commission of any of those, and they still happened.

To place a different context, let’s use the example of controlled substances.  People have been looking for legal ways to get high (other than alcohol) for a long time.  Aerosol, bath salts, salvia, and spice became the new “drugs” of choice for those people who were under scrutiny.  For those who would accept no substitute, cleansing rituals or someone else’s “clean” urine would be substituted for the drug user’s urine during a urinalysis test with lax supervision.  To bring it back to mass murder-if you remove one means of accomplishing a goal, another means will simply take its place.

To summarize where we’re at so far: we’ve established that mass murder can occur without the use of firearms and by proxy, firearms are not responsible for mass murder.

What we’re going to look at now is how mass murders are ended:

Mass murders end in one of three ways:

1.  A similarly armed/active resistance: The resistance possesses the potential to neutralize the mass murderer.  They are either similarly armed, or active.

Appalachian Law School, January 2002: A student from Nigeria came to the campus with a gun after unsuccessfully trying to resolve academic problems with the faculty.  He shot and killed a dean and professor, and in the same building killed one and wounded 3 other students.  He was stopped by two students, who were off-duty police officers and had firearms in their vehicles.  (1, p237)

Mumbai incidents, 2008: Terrorists attacked several locations using automatic weapons and were not stopped until police killed all of the attackers.  Over a period of SEVERAL DAYS the police engaged the 11 terrorists, with a total of 166 people killed and more than 300 wounded.


2.  The attackers run out of targets to attack.

Self explanatory


3.  The attacker loses the means to enact violence.  In the case of gun violence their chosen gun suffers a stoppage or catastrophic malfunction that they are unable to repair and thus the violence ends.

Aurora movie theater shooting: a man walked into a crowded movie theater and opened fire; the killing stopped because his weapon suffered a stoppage he could not clear and he left the building.


What we’re going to look at now is why gun control won’t work:

Supposing that we decided to ban guns in any form, here’s why it won’t work: controlled substances and illegal immigration are already banned and they are significant problems right now.  Would banning guns and confiscating guns lower gun violence?  Sure, I won’t deny that; however, it won’t make crime go down.  The problem with gun bands is that you have not addressed the human factor: someone still wants to commit violence and there are plenty of ways to do it without using a firearm.

I’ve seen a few arguments about how society is changing and devolving: I ask you then, why would you want to remove or restrict a person’s ability to defend themselves and their family, at home or abroad?

Someone also mentioned that while owning and bearing firearms is a second amendment right, the founding fathers put provisions into the Constitution to remove or add amendments as needed by the states.  True; but something you’re not thinking about is that most states have their own Constitutions and at a time when states are asserting their own sovereignty against the federal government, I doubt that an outright gun ban will get very far.  MAYBE an assault weapons ban, but even then it will be a prospective ban and not retroactive: that means that it would not have stopped the CT shooting that just occurred.  Additionally, the federal government has limited power to assert enforcement over anything that doesn’t cross state lines, and a number of states have already made it clear that the federal government will not be able to enforce any firearms legislation on firearms manufactured and sold within that state.

Did you know that the mass murdered who conducted the shooting stole the firearms from a person in another state?  Did you know he was not old enough to own a pistol?  Did you know that the three states with the most restrictive gun laws also have the most gun violence (California, Illinois, New York)?  Why should the rest of the union suffer because of the inability of members of those states to control themselves?

I also find it amusing that an administration which directed gun stores to conduct illegal weapons sales to Mexican cartels is now saying that we should restrict firearm ownership of U.S. citizens.

Let’s think about just the school shootings for just a second: what is special about school property?  It is a gun free zone.  That’s right, firearms aren’t allowed there.  Did the fact that the property is a gun free zone stop the mass murderers from coming there and committing a crime?  Nope.  Could armed security have prevented it?  Yes.


On my comment that a firearm is not designed to kill:

A firearm’s existence is solely to move parts in response to human interaction, and absorb recoil in response to those moving parts possibly causing a round to fire, and return to a passive state.  I can use a firearm to do something other than kill just like I can use a phone for something other than making a phone call.  The Glock 17 picture I put in a post I made a few days ago is one of my pistols; it doesn’t do anything; I manipulate the pistol, I cause it to fire, I am responsible for its use.  If firearms are responsible for murder and violence, why have we not successfully prosecuted a firearm yet?

It also doesn’t account for the tens of millions of people who do not commit gun violence despite the fact that they own a firearm.


What we’re going to look at now is the violence statistics for the last 20 years:

According to the FBI’s statistics murder and violent crime have been decreasing for the last 20 years.  Seems counterproductive to restrict firearms now, doesn’t it?


On some personal slights:

The internet toughguy routine really doesn’t work on me.  Two of you have assumed that I would shrink away in the gaze of a person who just lost a child to a mass murderer and not voice my opinion; you are mistaken.  I won’t go out of my way to cause grief, pain, or suffering by offering my opinion to them unsolicited, but I won’t be silent to them if asked and I certainly won’t be silent here if I have an outlet.

I don’t care if they agree with me, I don’t care if they’re on my side.  They’re still operating emotionally, you’re still operating emotionally, I’m operating cognitively.

If you’re going to call  me “a Bipolar”, Coconutspeak, at least do some research.  You’d find out that I’m not, my wife is.  Even if I was, what evidence do you have that I am incapable of owning a firearm because you yourself are uncomfortable with firearm ownership?

If you’re going to call me a “gutless fuck”, Syrbal, at least leave the comment thread up there since you added to it; stick to your guns.

I welcome both of you to come here and continue our discussion on “gun control” that was censored on Coconutspeak’s blog, and that you threatened to ban me for if I ever commented on your post, Syrbal.  I won’t censor either of you here, even if you do call me a “gutless fuck” or “a bipolar”.

Lastly, I would urge you to read an excellent article on SOFREP about this situation that shares many of my views.



(1) Cawood, J.; Corcoran, M. (2009)Violence Assessment and Intervention: The Practitioner’s Handbook 2nd Ed.  Taylor and Francis Group; Boca Raton, FL

Tonight’s post…

I try not to trash other bloggers, and will do my best to remain objective and not do so here; however after seeing some trash talking done about me on what I will refer to as blog b, about.a gun control debate on blog a, I feel compelled to make some statements here. Especially since my comments are being censored on blog a and the author of blog b has cowardly threatened to ban me if I even attempt to comment on their blog post about me. If you, blogs a and b, don’t read this post now, you’ll get the pingback of the post I write later.
As a last comment, offering up the excuse that “he’s a bipolar” to explain why you think I am so ignorant of reality really doesn’t speak well for you.

What do laws do?


A law tells you what conduct is unacceptable, and the consequences for violating that law. This does not prevent someone from breaking the law, otherwise we wouldn’t have murders, drug trafficking, human trafficking, sex slavery, or theft. So, what stops those from happening? Security measures. You lock your house up and valuables so they dont get stolen; you dont take drinks from people you don’t know at bars and clubs so you don’t end up raped, or a victim of the sex trafficking industry. In order to counter someone who means to be violent with you, you either have to not be present, or generate more violence atba faster rate than they can. Being killed and leaving your children father or motherless is not morally superior to having to explain to your children that you killed a person trying to hurt you. If you feel that your death is morally superior to theirs, you’ve made your own choice to not survive. Don’t think that you can decide for me whether or not I can survive. Consider that the three most firearm restrictive states, California, Illinois and New York, have the highest murder rates with firearms; in those states most citizens aren’t even legally allowed to carry them.