I wish I knew why


I have to fill a document with 3 pages of “whatevah, whatevah, ah do what ah wawnt!” when I can answer the mail in a single sentence; that sentence just also happens to be in the reference material assigned for this week’s reading.  

So be it, start page 1.  


Is crappy lately.  Doing some footwork to lay plans for the future, right now we’re sitting at a little over a year before I finish my bachelors degree.  If I don’t find an internship or job within my field after a few months, my education and training will go “stagnant”, in that I’m not actively being educated or using my education and skills, so I either have to start a masters program (which isn’t something I am averse to, it just isn’t something I’ve ever contemplated doing until recently), and commit myself to using financial aid-possibly.  I believe I have about 2 years of GI Bill money left, so that can cover literally 12 months of classes; bRaving Bopolar finished her Masters degree in 2 years.  All of that means that if she has a job before she finishes, maybe the extra income can avoid having to use financial aid if I can’t find a job or internship in my field.  

Either way, I’m still looking for internships now, so that I don’t have to worry about it later.  It helps that I am being taught by people that I literally could be working for in the next 10 years.  Hopefully I can make an impression on one or more of them and have an “in” to get a job.  My current job is very limited in its exposure to that community and it only advances when the course I assisted in curriculum development updates on its 2 year schedule.  


Things are going other than that.  bRaving Bipolar is quitting her job; I’m not comfortable with it.  I’m generally slow to change and meticulous in planning how changes like that occur: things like having a job offer already accepted so she can pick right up with another job, a cemented plan to move somewhere else in the current workplace, how to make up the monetary gap or use the extra time.  Lately I’ve been much more “spur of the moment”.

So I’m willing to take a chance and see what happens.  We’re in month 3 of receiving the GI Bill housing allowance so while money is still an issue, it isn’t such an issue that if she calls out sick one day of work we won’t have gas money.  

To expand on being spur of the moment, I HATE being tied to a date, time, or activity that keeps me in place for longer than I want to be there if I didn’t suggest it or bring it up.  Things as simple as sitting still and watching a movie or TV show aren’t high up on my list of things to do.  

Now that I’m thinking about it, it’s really about me being in control.  I’m very particular lately about what I’ll be open to as far as someone suggesting a change to me schedule, which includes adding something if I have nothing to do.