Trip I just took to Pensacola


Just got back from Pensacola night before last.  Spent all day yesterday sleeping with a migraine.  Went to a conference down there all last week, which was basically a paid war-stories kind of vacation, although there were some good bits of knowledge that I came out with.  I’m sure experience varies.

As part of the conference we got to visit the Museum of Naval Aviation, and it was pretty cool!  I will get the pictures uploaded to this blog later this week.  My grandmother had a fall while walking with my mom, and is now in the hospital with brain bleeding.  She’s got some bleeding in the front, back, and side of the left hemisphere.  They really aren’t saying what they’re gonna do, if she will recover, and what “recover” actually means compared to what normal was before the fall.  She is paralyzed on her right side, which I would think indicates a stroke, but they’re not sure what happened.

I haven’t really talked to my wife about it yet, but I find myself with more of a “don’t care” mindset.  That isn’t to say I don’t care about my grandmother, she was always a part of my life because she lived 15 minutes away from where I grew up, so we saw her at least once a week.  I guess my mindset is more of “she’s lived a long life, she spent 4 of the last 5 years taking care of her dying mother, I’ll see her again” kind of mindset.  I don’t have to try to not be sad about this, I can honestly celebrate her when she dies (whether it be soon because of this, or later because of something else).  I’ll be a little sad because I’ll miss her, but when it is time, it is time.

Speaking of the wife, she seems to be doing good on her new med.  I’m gonna have to get the title and list some of them out here for you guys at some point.  We had a long talk about hospitalization last week before I left.  She expressed the desire to check herself in to a hospital during her last depressed a few weeks ago, so I wanted to get information about where she wanted to go, and what we needed to do to check her in there.  Felt kinda morbid, but I needed to know.  In the meantime, our sex drives have flip-flopped.  I have almost no interest in it, and she has a high interest in it.  Sigh.  We joked about how we always flip-flop, and I said that hopefully we would one day “flap” and have the same sex-drive at the same time.  LoL

She wants me to show her how to lift using a barbell at the gym.  This will be fun because I love lifting, and she wants to try something new.  We’re doing bench press, squat, and seated overhead press today.

In my search for a good holster for my new-to-me Glock 17, I’m probably going to buy kydex sheets and make my own.  I can make, at a cost to me of about 40 bucks, the same holster that another company makes that costs 130 bucks.

The Mental Health Stigma is alive and well in the military


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This post graced my Facebook timeline today. It was made by a Staff Sergeant (E-6) in the Marine Corps. I know the guy, he’s the douchebag that got 2 people hurt so bad that one lost his arm and one with an extremely bad TBI. I digress.

The first comment is mine. The second comment is someone I’ve never met. If you think the military is doing a good job of erasing the stigma against mental health issues, you’re mistaken. It will take another 8 years before the NCOs and SNCOs (E-4 through E-7) have cycled out and are no longer in a position to treat Marines like this. Back in 2006 they still punished you if you had a mental health issue and couldn’t “fit in” like everyone else. Got demons and drink? NJP.

Clearly you aren’t responsible enough to take care of yourself, so fuck you, I’m going to take half of your pay, put you on restriction and extra duty. That will teach you to not have demons. I’m so sick of the zero-defect mentality; it is a delusion that kicking people out for these issues will make the Corps better in the short term or the long term. If you send the message that someone with a mental health issue, like PTSD, or TBI (TBIs do have an effect on the function of the brain, and can lead to depression, anger management problems, and cognitive errors) will be kicked out, those with the issues will no longer tell you because of the fear of being kicked out. This causes Marines to suffer for years, hiding their injury and living in shame that they are hurting and cannot confide in anyone. Their performance will degrade, and they may or may not spiral out of control. Ultimately their loyalty is not to the organization, it is to themselves-and why should it be to the organization when the organization would kick them to the curb because they were mentally injured doing what the organization asked them to do?

Have faith, however, because the 2nd commenter that I don’t know serves with the aforementioned douchebag, so there are people out there who will defend you if the shit goes down. Some people seek out the military because they get authority and they get paid to act like douchebags to people who cannot quit their job. The original poster is that guy.